Happy Birthday MOM!
I don't know where to start other than Happy Birthday. You would be 63 years young today and you loved that your birthday was right before Christmas. The holidays were your favorite time of the year. We always had to get the Christmas lights and decorations up right after Thanksgiving if not on Thanksgiving night. It did not matter what was going on we made time to do this as a family. You were a single mother and always made sure we had a good Christmas. I will always love you for those things. That is what a mother is supposed to do.
Once you got sick, you still tried to get everything done around the holidays. Of course, we would help with the lights and decorations. But you would set up the inside the way you liked and come outside to make sure nobody got hurt. You still went into a store to get presents with your oxygen. The one thing that I know made you happy was watching those Hallmark movies. I now watch those movies. I am currently typing this blog with one on in the background. I have a cup of hot tea with me.
Once you passed away 3 years ago, I had a hard time wanting to celebrate the holidays. But I knew I had too for your sake and for my sister's. She always loves everything to be exactly the same every year just like you. I am the one who encourages change but with traditions kept. So the first year was different and hard but we got through it. Then last year we enjoyed Christmas with our family traditions and new ones. This year is completely different as I am in a new home with my husband and Kimberly, my sister is in her own place. We both have a lot of stressful things going on. And well lets not forget the big elephant! There is a pandemic going on. Everything is always changing. But I have your nutcrackers out and my snow globes. Once I took those out, I felt a little better about Christmas coming around. Those are our two traditions that will never change. I know I will see my sister for Christmas and everything will be okay.
For the most important part of this blog. I just want to say thank you for raising me to be who I am today. Waking up to the end of a snowstorm on your birthday made me at complete ease. It was a calmness that came over me. I cannot explain it exactly but it made me happy. I love you and miss you more than words can describe.